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Water just broke. Waiting for people to get here to take me to the hospital. It's finally happening and I am scared to death.
I'll be sittin' when the evening comes. WAITING FOR THIS BABY TO COME OUT!!!!!
I went back to the doctor this morning, and I am dilated to 3. THREE! As in centemeters people. I was able to get an epidural when I got to 3 cm the first time around. Well, they sure didn't offer me an epidural today. Just a pat on the back and a "see you in one week." Maybe I'll go this week, but if I don't it's looking more and more like I'll have a March baby. All in all I feel good, my sinus infection has subsided, and I'm not that uncomfortable. It's just a waiting game. Any ideas on how to pass the time?
(Not to be confused with dropping a kid)
I have started two posts this week, but haven't finished either of them. It's been a really rough week in my household. Ya'll, I'm sick. I started coming down with this mess last week when I was so thirsty, remember? It has progressed to some kind of horrible infection in my head. I couldn't breathe through my nose at all (up until yesterday), I can't hear because my ears are stopped up, and I can barely speak because my throat is so raw. I went to see the OB Monday (becasuse remember my Friday appt. was cancelled), who completely dismissed my obvious illness. He said to drink plenty of liquids and get plenty of rest. HA! Hardy damned har har. I wasn't able to function all weekend and you think liquids are going to make me better? Yesterday morning I woke up and I could barely talk. My throat was so raw that I was coughing up specks of blood. I called the OB nurse and absolutely broke down. I cried and cried when I told her that something was wrong, and that I was really sick, and that the (fucking) Dr. just acted like I was some whiny pregnant woman when I told him on Monday, and that if I were to go into labor today I didn't think I had the strength to go through it. She said I needed to get to a doctor NOW! I was so relieved to hear her (or anyone!) finally agree with me. She said to go to my family Dr. for the sake of time, which I did. Turns out I DO have a severe sinus infection that has just gone haywire in my head. He gave me an antibiotic, and I swear, after just 2-3 pills I could feel the difference. I am finally able to breathe, my throat is still scratchy, but not as raw, and maybe, just maybe my ears will pop soon. I am so mad at that Dr. I saw Monday (he's not my regular - I rotate between all the drs. in the practice). The only good thing out of that visit is that he told me I am 1.5 cm dialated, and 60% effaced. Maybe when I go tomorrow (not seeing him again!) this doctor will tell me I'm 6cm! and I need to go to the hospital! < / wishful thinking> That would be the perfect end to a suck ass week. (speaking of week...the weather this week has been cra-zee! It snowed Friday, Saturday, & Sunday...was in the mid-60's Wednesday and Thursday, and is supposed to snow/sleet again tomorrow night through this weekend! It's bi-polar weather!! Can't make up it's mind!)
And finally, my overdue meme for Jamie.....
4 jobs I’ve had:
* Cashier at local grocery
* Dorm Security Aide (in charge of making the boys sign into the girls' dorm - and sign out *wink*)
* Day Care Worker
* English Teacher
4 movies I could watch over and over again:
* Sixteen Candles
* Pretty Woman
* Sweet Home Alabama
* Remember the Titans
4 places I’ve lived:
* "My Town", TN - house I grew up in
* Clarksville, TN
* "My Town", TN - rental houses
* "My Town", TN - current house
(Can you say BOOORRRIIINNNGGG! )
4 TV shows I love:
* Gray's Anatomy
* Desperate Housewives
* Gilmore Girls
* Veronica Mars
(for some reason I am a 13 year old girl when it comes to television...)
4 favorite books:
* Divine Secrets of the Ya Ya Sisterhood by Rebecca Wells
* Any book written by Marian Keyes
* Summer Sisters by Judy Blume
* The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks
4 places I have vacationed:
* various places in Flordia (the beach and DisneyWorld)
* Honolulu and Maui in Hawaii
* "The Mountains"
* Gulf Shores, AL
4 websites I visit every day:
* My Yahoo headlines
* Google
* eBay (usually as a distraction)
* Most of that blogroll over to the left...
4 favorite foods:
* Chicken
* Lasagna
* Tacos
* Cheesecake
4 favorite foods when dieting pregnant:
* Honey Buns
* Peaches
* fountain Mello Yello
* eggs - or any breakfast food at any given time!
Well, word is trickling around work that we are dismissing early due to the "threat" of bad weather that is to come this afternoon. Hmmmmm.... Don't get me wrong, I am THRILLED with this information, but "the threat?" Ooookaaaay..... Other things cancelled because of this threat are 1. My OB appointment this afternoon. and 2. My son's ped. appt. this afternoon. Both clinics are closing after lunch to avoid the "threat" of bad weather. I got a wee bit pissy at the appointment lady from my ob/gyn clinic for cancelling on me today without being able to fit me in this morning, because, well, I could drop this baby any day now (not to mention that they STILL haven't "checked" me). She did put me in on Monday, but still, it's annoying. Snow falling, yes I understand. But the THREAT! Sheesh!
Yall, this is just about miserable. My fingers are like little hot red sausages. I can NOT get enough water, which in turn makes me have to go pee twice as much as I already had to. I mean, damn, I got up 3 times last night for a full glass of water! Then this morning I have had two glasses of water at home and two here at work. For those of you playing along, that's 7 glasses of water since 10:30 last night. I can't help but wonder if something might be wrong. Why else would I be this thirsty and swollen? I told my friend this morning that I worried that my amniotic fluid might be as dry as I feel. Good thing I go back to the doctor tomorrow.
Things have been hard at work. I would almost swear that there has been a full moon the past week and a half. The natives are restless, and it's about to drive me crazy!!! Yesterday I totally lost my shit on 2 boys who were bitch slapping each other as they were running around the room. My boss thought I was about to have the baby, and he graciously took the two heathens to his office for a "chat." Then there's this girl who is walking a thin line on getting expelled out of school for the rest of the year. She made me have a fabulous day yestereday as well. She slapped a boy 4 times in the hallway (not all at the same time), was disrespectful and belligerent to a substitute, and was insubordinate - she just refused to do her work in class. I'm telling you, this is a rough time to be a little over a week from the "estimated" due date.
COULD I POSSIBLY COMPLAIN ANY MORE TODAY????
I have been swamped this weekend with the birthday party and with trying to wrap up work. I am literally making time to sit down to write out a post before I start going again. This has been the most wonderful weekend! Not only did we have a great 4th birthday party for the boy, but something very special happened to a good friend of mine.
A very long time ago I mentioned that I had a friend who had suffered for a LONG time with infertility. She had all but given up hope of ever having a baby...until Friday evening. Her baby girl was born into this world, and although R. wasn't the one giving birth, she and her husband were there every step of the way. I can' t tell you how excited they are to have finally found a child to adopt and make their family whole. It has been the highlight of my weekend!
Now let me bitch about the low of the weekend:
Friday, my mom told me that my (older) sister had asked asked her & my dad to go to Florida with them on vacation. My mom told me she didn't want to go to at all, because it just didn't interest her. I said that we were trying to plan on going to *another fun location* this summer...and my mom said she would LOVE to do that. WELL fast forward to the birthday party Saturday...I overheard my dad and my sister talking about making reservations...*same location as my vacation*...lots to do...antiques...etc. I couldn't have been more shocked if someone had walked up and slapped me. They have stolen my vacation out from under me! I am so hurt and mad, and every time I talk about it I just want to cry. (prob. pregnancy emotions, I know) My mom knows I'm mad because at the party she said "what's wrong with you" and all I answered was "well, I just found out where ya'll are going on vacation this summer" and walked off. Then later my sis was talking about it to the rest of the family, and my mom, who is not known for holding her tongue, didn't say ONE WORD! I want to just "have it out" with them and get it over with, but I don't know how to bring it back up. All I've been doing this weekend is stewing over it.
The way I see it is one of 2 things happened:
1. My sis and BIL had a "vision" and decided to change their plans of vacation destination
OR
2. Mom went and told dad and they mentioned it to sis and BIL, who agreed, leading to the rest of the story.
Either way, it's just wrong. If #1 happened, then mom should have said "well, Charla has already mentioned this to me, so I can't make plans w/ you behind her back w/o talking to her first" and if #2 happened, then that is all kinds of WRONG! MEAN! DECIETFUL! and most of all hurtful. You know, sorry that I didn't realize that I had to make plans for Vacation in November or December to beat the backwards-ass family I have who believes all vacations book up in January. I've been a little bit preoccupied lately, nothing much, just waiting to give BIRTH. I can't think about vacation reservations right now, but I can have the ideas in my head.
It wouldn't make me mad if they were going to all go to Florida, like they had orig. planned. I have no interest in that, and power to them or whatever. It's the fact that they stole my vacation. That they went behind my back w/ my plans. That now, no matter what is said or happens, it will either work out that my mom and dad won't go anywhere, or that they will suggest we "all go together like a big happy family" which sucks royally! It is not a vacation when you go with the sis and BIL. It is super stressful because they are never happy, and she won't discipline her kids. I do have one trump card, though...mom and dad have never been on vacation with us but have been several places w/ them, so I *could* play it. I just don't know what to do, besides fume. I'm really good at that, lol. Any suggestions?
Four years ago today my life was forever changed. Now that I could never imagine my life any other way, it will soon change again, but not before we celebrate one last birthday as an only child. I am so proud of the boy my baby has grown in to. Sure he may pull apart the post office sign every time we go there...Sure he may cry until I give in and buy him the silly Airhead candy he loves so much...Sure he may run and run and run around me when I ask him to stand by my side like a "good boy," but he is still the light of my life and is perfect in every way. Happy fourth birthday to my "big boy!"
