I don't know what's wrong with me. I am just so blah. I have no desire to do much of anything, even the things I need to do! I haven't been posting because I don't have anything to say. We did battle the stomach flu this past weekend. Hurrah! That makes 5 times that Chase has had a stomach bug in the past year. 5. times. I don't think I've had it 5 times my whole life!
This week also marked another failed cycle of Clo*mid. My dr. says I am ovulating, so it should be a matter of time, but it is SO HARD! 15 months is a long time. (and please don't berate me for whining about my 15 months when you've been trying for many years. I know it's hard, no matter how long, but this is my journal...m'kay?) I am exhausted. I live in two week increments...counting days. Watching for signs, wishing for signs. I am just so sad.
Last night was particulary hard for me (read: depressing), and then I wake up this morning, get to the babysitters (late) only to be told that she has been trying to call me because she now has a stomach bug. Great. I have nowhere to take Chase because I'm about to be late for work, so I just bring him with me. I called my mom to come pick him up for me, so it ended up ok, but oh so very frustrating.
Well, isn't this a holly jolly Thursday for you! Then ramblings of a whiney butt.
Comments
I hope it all falls into place for you. You deserve wonderful things. Sending hugs your way.
Posted by: Leslie Flinger | February 24, 2005 08:36 PM
Oh Charla! I'm so sorry about this cycle -- it'll all work out, promise! :) And no matter where you are in the stage of "trying" -- each month is difficult. I feel for you. Send me an e-mail if you need to!
Posted by: The Other Leslie | February 25, 2005 02:36 PM
It is so hard to be patient and wait every month. We waited just a little longer than you to get pregnant with our daughter and it felt like forever, but it did happen. Hang in there. I used to hear people say "you never had to wait five years or anything" well you know what, waiting is waiting and it feels the same. Keep your chin up. I enjoy your blog. Keep posting. Hugs
Lori
Posted by: revswife | February 26, 2005 02:13 PM
I hope things are looking up for you. =) Email me if you need to vent or talk!
Posted by: Daisyhead | February 28, 2005 04:49 PM
Charla, I am sorry this month has been a downer too. Guess what, Monkey and I are totally going through these swings every month alongside you, so if you want to vent, you know I am all ears. Also, poor Chase and his tummy! 5 times?! I'd roll myself into a ball and bury myself for months if I had to have a tummy bug that often. Poor little trooper! Just know I am crossing my fingers and toes for you for next month's try!
Posted by: Giao | March 2, 2005 10:52 PM